I lost a good friend yesterday, it's something I never thought would happen and came to everyone in complete shock. He died in a car accident and no one has heard the whole story yet. Some people say he fell asleep at the wheel but there hasn't been a lot information about it out yet. I found one new paper article but it doesn't give much information. He was supposed to graduate after one more semester and an internship, but most of all he was my friend and a friend to many others. This misfortune has made me really think about my friends past and future. It's made me realize how little I've talked to my friends from school, and now that one of them isn't coming back it makes me really think who my friends really are.

Lately there has been constant drama between everyone about just about everything and honestly i'm sick and tired of it. Some of my good friends have become distant for unknown reasons to me and i've rekindled some friendships with old friends. This summer is nothing compared to last and I as much as I wish it would, it will never compare. There are so many new people in my life now thanks to school, people are truly care about, even if I haven't taken the time to talk to each and every one of them, which I do feel bad about. I haven't been as happy this summer as I was last. There's been too much arguing and tragedy that's just bringing me down.

These past few days I've spent time with some old friends and you know what happened? We had fun, there was no arguing, no competition for attention, we just had fun. I can't explain how great it was to see them again and have a little glimpse of last summer back but it will never be the same. This summer has had it's high points, there are many things that happened this summer that I wouldn't trade for anything and that I will always remember but there's parts I'd rather have just not happened.

I feel as though i'm drifting apart from people I care about and it's not something I really want to happen. But it's just not the same anymore and no one has talked to me about anything so it's like I have nothing left but to just give up. Sorry if you don't want to be friends anymore... not that I did anything. Unless I did then please inform us this misunderstanding because those seem to be going around a lot lately. I hate being left in dark but that's where I am and where I'll stay until someone decides to turn the light on or at least show me where is it.

7/7/09 RIP SHANE STOUT. YOU WILL BE MISSED. IT SHOULDN'T HAVE ENDED THIS SOON.
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